[Shane repeats, because it's true. It was the worst thing- probably even worse for Ilya because he was watching it all go down. Him leaving, dating Rose, the club that night. Shane felt terrible, but he had put himself in that spot, and he had put Ilya there too.
But Ilya's right. It's dangerous.]
I know. I know it is.
[He breathes in Ilya's air. He wants to understand- to tell Ilya that he tries to do so. That he knows it could never be that easy. But then-- those words. It feels like everything around them stops. It feels like he finally understands all of it. What else is there but this?]
Holy shit...
[he breathes out, sliding his hands to Ilya's face, cupping his cheeks. That's what all of this has been. He knows it now, hearing those words out loud.]
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Date: 2026-01-11 08:09 am (UTC)[Shane repeats, because it's true. It was the worst thing- probably even worse for Ilya because he was watching it all go down. Him leaving, dating Rose, the club that night. Shane felt terrible, but he had put himself in that spot, and he had put Ilya there too.
But Ilya's right. It's dangerous.]
I know. I know it is.
[He breathes in Ilya's air. He wants to understand- to tell Ilya that he tries to do so. That he knows it could never be that easy. But then-- those words. It feels like everything around them stops. It feels like he finally understands all of it. What else is there but this?]
Holy shit...
[he breathes out, sliding his hands to Ilya's face, cupping his cheeks. That's what all of this has been. He knows it now, hearing those words out loud.]
I love you too.