[This. Does he mean sex? Does he mean giving Ilya what he wants in the bedroom? Does he mean in life? Maybe he's still trying to figure that out as well, but denying Ilya anything right now, after these tumultuous months... it feels wrong.
He breathes out slowly when Ilya says he's heard. Feels like another weight off his shoulder. Does that mean there's nothing holding them back anymore, like that last time they were together in Shane's hotel room? He isn't sure- but that's how he wants it to be.]
Yeah...
[He says somewhere in there, tilting his head to kiss Ilya- for the first time in what feels like far too long.]
We should.
[But he doesn't really stop either. His arms loop around Ilya to pull him closer, kissing him a little deeper each time.]
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Date: 2025-12-17 09:39 pm (UTC)[This. Does he mean sex? Does he mean giving Ilya what he wants in the bedroom? Does he mean in life? Maybe he's still trying to figure that out as well, but denying Ilya anything right now, after these tumultuous months... it feels wrong.
He breathes out slowly when Ilya says he's heard. Feels like another weight off his shoulder. Does that mean there's nothing holding them back anymore, like that last time they were together in Shane's hotel room? He isn't sure- but that's how he wants it to be.]
Yeah...
[He says somewhere in there, tilting his head to kiss Ilya- for the first time in what feels like far too long.]
We should.
[But he doesn't really stop either. His arms loop around Ilya to pull him closer, kissing him a little deeper each time.]