[ Shane knows something deep has shifted inside of him when he doesn't feel like spending the night with Ilya in that hotel room was a big mistake. He should be freaking out, knowing that they just laid there in bed together, curled up in each other's arms and simply slept, instead of having sex.
Somehow that seems even worse. It's something they can't have, shouldn't have. It scares the absolutely shit out of Shane. But it still doesn't feel like a mistake.
Rose must realize it too, because a few weeks later she breaks up with him, and that's when Shane really freaks out. She knows. Not about Ilya, but about him, and for the first time, he doesn't deny it. After that, the anxiety fraying the edges of his nerves shifts to something more like relief.
Two weeks after that, the Montreal Metros are set to play the Boston Raiders.]
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Date: 2025-12-15 11:59 pm (UTC)Somehow that seems even worse. It's something they can't have, shouldn't have. It scares the absolutely shit out of Shane. But it still doesn't feel like a mistake.
Rose must realize it too, because a few weeks later she breaks up with him, and that's when Shane really freaks out. She knows. Not about Ilya, but about him, and for the first time, he doesn't deny it. After that, the anxiety fraying the edges of his nerves shifts to something more like relief.
Two weeks after that, the Montreal Metros are set to play the Boston Raiders.]