( there’s a prickling in ilya’s eyes that he is glad shane can’t see. he keeps himself tucked away in the crook of shane’s neck, trying to will the feeling away. he hates the thought of him seeing this, of how weak ilya can be around him because he wants so much.
and then shane says words that could be a promise and somehow it’s better, somehow it’s worse. ) You are really fucking stupid if you don’t walk away, Hollander.
( because russia, because their careers. they’re both really fucking stupid that they’re here right now but ilya doesn’t want to be anywhere else. he wants the high of tonight again, wants to feel shane’s lips against his own and feel and have and keep.
he stays wrapped around shane, hands on his skin like the touch is a lifeline and breathes him in. )
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Date: 2025-12-22 06:46 pm (UTC)and then shane says words that could be a promise and somehow it’s better, somehow it’s worse. ) You are really fucking stupid if you don’t walk away, Hollander.
( because russia, because their careers. they’re both really fucking stupid that they’re here right now but ilya doesn’t want to be anywhere else. he wants the high of tonight again, wants to feel shane’s lips against his own and feel and have and keep.
he stays wrapped around shane, hands on his skin like the touch is a lifeline and breathes him in. )